Monday, March 26, 2007

WI Eve

I'm dreading tomorrow. I've been OP all week, but as of this morning I am back to where I ended last week. AND ever since my last WI I have been losing and gaining the same .2 lbs. Needless to say I'm finding it hard to stay motivated. Note....I'm finding it hard to stay motivated does not mean I'm not still motivated!!!! I'm going to keep my fingers crossed but I'm not expecting anything as today was super hectic at work and that means that my calorie intake was very low which usually throws my metabolism into a tail spin.

On the non-diet front...

  • The pollen count today was 5,499. Yes, that's correct - 5,499! My dark green car is yellow, my eyes are red and my runny nose is producing green snot. Did I mention that my sinus are backed up below my knees! Even my toes are hurting from the sinus pressure!!
  • I have finished my bunny bags with the exception of threading the ribbon through the bag openings. One of them has it's little face on backwards (the ribbon for the bag should tie at the back of the bag - this one will tie in the front of the bag - think "bunny with hair ribbon!"). I'll give that one to J because she doesn't know if she's coming or going half the time so I'm sure she will develop a kinship with the backwards bunny!
  • Tigerlilly Furbella suffered a Myocardial Infraction when her "starter" battery gave out, but she is much better now thanks to 2 new D batteries. So much for them telling me the batteries lasted for months and months!
  • The ants on are the move. Yes, the weather is getting hot (I can't believe how hot it is getting already!!!). And when the weather gets hot (and dry) the ants make their way indoors. I came home from a long day at work to find the ants marching from the french doors in the dining room all the way into the kitchen. Of course that ticked me off because I was really looking forward to actually getting a chance to eat today and because of them I couldn't fix dinner!!! Or maybe I should say because of the ant spray I sprayed all over the floor I couldn't fix dinner. I sprayed so much that I'll be lucky if it's dry in the morning! As it is, my already runny eyes because of the pollen are now swollen shut because of the spray!!!

I'm hungry and I'm tired. I think I'll go to bed. :)

Sunday, March 18, 2007

The "F" Word

That's right, it's time to talk about Farts! And don't even pretend that you don't fart. You may be good at holding in farts - more power to you! But the little gassy inmates sentenced for a stay in your intestines will make a prison break as soon as you relax so don't even think about going to sleep!!!

Why am I on the subject of farts? Because I was in great pain for two days this week with what I call "stomach farts". Stomach farts start in your stomach (duh) and set up camp because the gas takes the wrong fork in the road on its journey to the butt. It reached unbelievable proportions. The noise that my stomach made caused my co-workers to look up and ask "is that thunder?". Bending over was a risky situation because I never could tell when the movement would cause my roll of belly fat to push the gassy substance down for an ill-timed release (needless to say - there was a trail following me around as I wasn't all that eager to bend over to pick up anything I may have dropped if there was anyone around). When I had to pee I had to fight the urge to stand up and pee – because I knew as soon as I sat down on the toilet air would rush out of my anal opening (and there was no controlling the “noise level” that might ensue). I was coughing, opening and closing my desk drawers unnecessarily and generally talking much louder than normal with the sole purpose of covering up any noise that may be coming from my body.

Happily, I'm now all better. And I learned a lesson.... even if you're already getting in a good dose of fiber a day, don't decide to suddenly start eating multiple servings of Fiber One cereal in one fell swoop! You've got to build up to it!!!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

It's Official

.2

This sucks!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

To get dressed or to not get dressed...

It is now 3:05 and I'm still running around the house in my gown and robe! I did brush my teeth, but I haven't taken a shower, brushed my hair or put on makeup (what a pretty picture!). I had planned on going out an running errands but then I started working on cutting out the feet, hands, ears and all the circles for "paws" for my bunny bags. That lead me to testing out one to see what it was going to look like if I sew them all by hand. It took me 30 minutes alone just to sew up one bunny (this doesn't include the time it takes to cut the fabric or to make all the arms, feet and ears). (And I'll mention at this point - the bag I cut out was too small - or else everything else I'd cut out was too big so I'm going to have to re-cut a larger bag pattern.) So that lead me downstairs to where I thought my sewing machine was stored. It was down in the hall closet - the machine was on the floor, the peddle was up on the top shelf (why? I have no idea). Finding the sewing machine lead me to setting it up. Setting it up lead me to trying to figure out how to load the bobbin. Trying to figure out how to load the bobbin lead me to open up the cover only to have everything in there fall out - BEFORE I EVEN HAD A CHANCE TO SEE WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE BEFORE THE CONTRAPTION DECIDED TO MAKE LIKE DOMINO'S! That lead me to 30 minutes of frantically looking for the operational booklet (I never found it). So after another 30 minutes I finally got the bobbin back in where it belonged (with the thread on it that was on it in the first place - since I had that much trouble just trying to get the bobbin in place and since it actually matched the fabric that I was using I decided to stick with it). Then I needed to thread the machine. I threaded this way, then that way but no matter what I did I couldn't get the needle to move up and down when I pressed the peddle. I was able to get it to go up and down by manually turning the wheel. I've left everything set up downstairs - maybe tomorrow I'll feel like tackling it again but for now I'm totally fed up. At this point I'm just going to stick to my original plan of sewing the bags by hand. If I were only 20 years younger I bet I could remember what I'd learned in the two years of sewing lessons my mother made me take!

Diet wise I'm hanging in there. I was up a couple of ounces this morning, but nothing like what I went through the week before last. I'm probably not going to have a huge loss this week but I'm pretty comfortable that I will lose at least a pound. (Which will officially put me at losing that elephant's penis that I've been aiming for as a short term goal!).

Now I'm off for that shower so that I can at least do something productive today. :)

By the way - my kitty is officially named......

Tigerlily Furbella


Tuesday, March 06, 2007

It's time for me to see a shrink!

Good news. :( I lost 3.6 this past week. That is in fact good news, yet I'm not excited about it. I really was hoping to make up for the gain last week - in other words I really wanted to lose at least 5 lbs this past week. It was not to be and I should be grateful for the loss. I'm not grateful yet, but I'm sure the next time I have a small gain or an even smaller loss I will remember what an ungrateful bitch I was today and I will say thank goodness for that 3.6 lb loss! I think I need a shrink because I can't help comparing my loses with everyone else! I know that everyone loses at different rates. I know that my medication for the Graves Disease has slowed down my thyroid to an all time low so it's going to be harder for me to lose. And I know that it's not good to lose weight too fast anyway. But bottom line - I want the numbers to go down, and down fast!!!!

Food wise - I met a friend for dinner tonight. It was planned. And in my planning I knew that I would go over my maximum calorie limit today. I rode the bike for a full hour this morning to help offset some of the extra calories. I did 30 minutes of Kick Boxing when I got home to help burn even more of the extra calories. And (this is a biggie) I got in my 10,000 steps today!! And I just plugged in everything I ate today in my FitDay journal...

I only consumed 1340 calories!!!

So I didn't go over my 1500 max limit!!! Yeah me!!!!

Now I have to go name my cat. I never got around to spending my $100 from my last pity party (gosh, I'm getting good about pity parties) so tonight I bought myself a silly, tacky, stupid _______ (fill in your own adjective) gift. I love animals, but it wouldn't be fair to have a pet since I work so much and I live in a townhouse so I don't have a proper yard. Tonight I found one of those stuffed cats - you know the ones that from a distance actually looks like a cat but once you get close to it...well it looks like a stuffed animal. But this one had a twist (at least I had never seen it before) - it's little side goes up and down like she's breathing! I got the little orange Tabby and when she breaths it makes her stripes move - and you can see it even from across the room!!! I actually wanted the Golden Retriever puppy but they didn't have one in a box and I wanted the whole shebang! And now that I've seen the website I think I want one of the little Pugs or the Chihuahua's so I may end up spending my whole $100 on perfectpetzzzz's.

If you wanna see my little kitty go to Perfect Petzzz!

Hmmmm - I won't be buying another little tyke on-line. I only paid $28 for my little tabby. She must have been the runt of the litter. LOL

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Get over it!

I'm done sulking (this time anyway). I ended last week with a gain. It was a small gain (.2) but I resented the crap out of it since I'd worked so hard. But it could have been worse because the day before WI, I was actually up 2.4 lbs! This week has been pretty much more of the same. I did finally lose 2 whole lbs. But then yesterday I had gained all of it back except .2 - what is it with the .2???

Total lost in February was a measly old 6.2 lbs. The good news - even with the gain and with the overall (in my opinion) small February loss I stuck with my program!

Now this is pathetic...There is a girl at work. 5'9" tall. She weighs maybe 125 lbs but that would be stretching it to the max! She thinks she is overweight and she wants to lose 10 lbs. I don't have a problem with that. I may not agree but if she would be happier with herself losing 10 lbs so be it. So on Tuesday she came in with her SlimFast for breakfast & lunch and her carrots for a snack. For dinner she is still eating as she had in the past and she is still drinking her beer(s) nightly. Here comes the pathetic part.... Yesterday (Friday - 3 full days into her new diet plan!!) one of the other girls in the office said "WOW! I can tell you've already lost weight!!!" WTF???!!! I've lost 55 lbs and no one has noticed a thing, yet this skinny little twit can be on what amounts to probably a 1800-2000 calorie diet with no exercise and in 3 days people can tell a difference??? Oh how unfair can life be! :P

The good news is that it got me out of my funk and I'm mentally back into the battle!


Sunday, February 25, 2007

On the 5th day...

Still up. :( But what really gets me is that for the second month in a row I'm not going to hit my monthly 10 lb loss goal - which means that I'm probably not going to reach the goal I set for October (niece's wedding).

On the good news side, I ate according to plan yesterday and I couldn't find anything that I really wanted to buy yesterday so I'm still $100 richer. I checked out another DVD at the library yesterday (this one is a boot camp kick boxing DVD) and did 40 minutes of it, along with 30 minutes of the yoga DVD and 30 minutes on the bike. So I can at least honestly say that I'm not losing because I'm not trying! So far today I've had 40 oz of water, an apple and a cup of milk. I've done 20 minutes of kickboxing and cleaned the kitchen. Now I'm going to work on some stuff that I brought home from work. Then I'll exercise some more and have a piece of the whole wheat pizza with veggies and ff parmasian cheese on it that I made (and froze) two weeks ago.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Saturday Setback Surmount

For the 4th day in a row the scales are showing a gain for me. I really hoped that when I woke up this morning and stepped on the scale I would at least be back down to my official beginning weekly weigh-in weight but it wasn't to be. In the past (and I have to admit even last night) my thoughts would have turned to comfort food - if I'm going to gain then I should at least get the satisfaction of eating something "bad". And by now I would have been planning on what food I was going to indulge in. But I got up this morning and I've decided to comfort myself in some other way - a way that doesn't involve food. I'm going to exchange one bad habit for another bad habit....I'm going to go buy myself a non-edible present! I'm going to limit myself to $100, but I'm hitting the buy road!

As far as my weekly goals go I'm not doing great, but I'm not doing too badly either.

  • Meds - I've taken my meds every day (which could explain the gain since it is a anti-thyroid medication)
  • Exercise - I'm still getting in my 1 hour a day and not all of it was on the stationary bike (but honestly I still need to get off the bike more!). I checked out a yoga DVD from the library and includes 2 different levels for the different poses so I'm able to pick the level that works best for my decrepit body. And I purchased a cardio DVD from Walmart - it has 3 people doing the exercises at different levels so again I'm able to pick the one that works best for me.
  • Diet - I've done much better on the eating out this week. My original goal at the beginning of the year was to limit myself to eating out no more than 2 times per week and I've only eaten out once this week.
Now I'm off to spend money!

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Tuesday's Blather

Blather - to talk or utter foolishly, blither, babble. I love that word! Actually it could be believed that if there was a picture in the dictionary beside blather it would be yours truly! :D

I had a plumbing problem this weekend. (I'm talking toilet plumbing, not female plumbing). I hate owning a house because I can't stand worrying about all the things that could go wrong. But here I am - a homeowner. I decided to get up off of my butt and actually clean all the bathrooms here. So I poured the toilet bowl cleaner into the bowl, swished it around and went to flush. The water came up, and up, and up some more! It stopped right at the rim so at least I didn't have a mess on the floor. I couldn't (and still can't) imagine what could have been stopping it up because it was the one that is basically only used for company. My nifty little plunger did nothing to resolve the problem. So like a good girl, I shut the door. I have other bathrooms so why not just leave it alone and hope that it fixes itself - or at least leave it alone until the next batch of company comes to visit. Of course, the next morning I was filled with remorse not because anything awful happened overnight, but because as a homeowner it is my responsibility to get these things taken care of. So I pulled out the yellow pages with the intention of calling a plumber. But then I remembered that I'm actually kind of cheap. So last night I stopped at Home Depot and bought myself a auger. I love toys! You would have thought it would have been a disgusting situation with all kinds of gross things coming up out of the toilet but nothing repulsive came back up (a little loose TP, but that was it). It was like fishing in a small pond. I had so much fun that I went "fishing" in all three toilets even though I only had a problem with the one toilet. Me and my auger - what a team!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

The Week In Review

I've been exhausted all week. It's been all I can do to get through the work day. I haven't felt like cooking, I can't concentrate on books or TV and I've been having terrible mood swings. All I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep. I was starting to think that I was going through some type of Post PMS but I just realized that I have only taken my meds three times this week! Grrrr! I'm not old enough to be that forgetful! Hopefully now that I've been reminded of the consequences of not taking my pills daily I will get back on track.

Diet wise - as I indicated above, I haven't felt like cooking this week. So I've eaten out 4 times this week. I've made good choices so the week hasn't been a failure - baked chicken and fresh veggies at two of the outings, veggies only at the third outing and then a small chili from Wendy's for the fourth outing. But eating at home would have been healthier and it would have saved me some money. I'm not doing that great with my exercise either. I've gotten in a hour a day of exercise - but every bit of it was on the stationary bike! And when I spend that much time on the bike I start getting bored. Boredom = lower level on the bike and less MPH which = less calories burned!

My focus points for the coming week - take my medication, cook my own food and make sure that I do different types of exercise this week!


P.S. I just watched a tape of the Oprah show (ok, I wasn't really watching it, but it was playing in the background). But I did listen enough to catch a saying that I absolutely adore!

"Trying is just a dignified failure"

I will succeed in my focus points for the coming week!!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

An Update For Those Who Live Vicariously Through Me

(Thanks Dana! I needed a laugh!)

This is my second attempt - I just typed a chapter, I swear it was a BIG chapter and my computer crashed!! So I'm going to type really fast so that I can get ready for Grey's Anatomy!

I've been in a pissy mood today because I received my 5th message from the legal firm that is representing my old company in a couple of lawsuits that some ex-employees have filed against them. First of all, all of that crap happened over 2 years ago. In that time it's been talked about so much that I couldn't tell you if I remember because I saw it or I remember because I heard other people talking about it. When the company sold off the Atlanta market to the company I work for now I lost access to the computer I used - and that computer had all the emails, spreadsheets and scanned documents that I would need to help me remember. But what really burns me is that they (the law firm for my ex-company) expects me to take time off work (which means that I would need to take vacation time) to drive to their office (which is 45 minutes from my office and 1-1/2 hours from home!) and my deposition should only take about 3 hours! That pretty much means that I have to take a full day off!!! To tell them "I don't remember", "I can't be sure" and "I don't know". And this is after I've already talked to them on the phone for two hours!!! And what really pissed me off is that they keep leaving the messages on my cell phone - I specifically told them that I only use my cell phone for emergencies. They used my home phone number to call me to talk about the case - why would they leave every message on my cell phone??? I literally use it for emergencies and to call my parents once or twice a month - the rest of the time I have it turned off!!! Wouldn't you think they would be smart enough to think "hmmmm, maybe I should try the home number"!!!

Moving on to another subject. I was trying to look up something in my old WW information so that I could answer a question for one of the members at the WW Online site. I found my membership books from 2003-2004 where I lost the 120 lbs. And I found the membership book from 2005 where I got kicked out of WW's. It was so strange looking at that book because I lost 61 lbs in 3 months! I really blew it! Not only did I gain back all of the weight from the 2003-2004 try, but I wasted some good months with the Graves disease - I could have really lost some major pounds while I was waiting for the test results to come back in and for the meds to slam the brakes on my thyrod. Now I'm hypo thanks to the meds and it's harder for me to lose - but never fear! I will succeed! And 50 lbs in 4 months isn't too shabby.

Ok, time to hit the road! I've started working on my annual bunny bags so I'll be cutting out feet while I'm watching Grey's tonight!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Ugggggg

Today it was snowing where I live. Snow - real snow - only happens here every two or three years. Normally what we get is wetness that freezes. So I got up at 4 so that I could leave by 5. Years ago I learned that I'm fine driving in snow and some ice as long as I have room to maneuver around. Leaving earlier, along with the fact that the majority of the people decided to stick tight to their home, gave me all the space that I needed. I actually only hit two bad areas. Now I'm just going to keep my fingers crossed that it stays above freezing (it was already 35 degrees driving home from work so I'm afraid that it might just slip below freezing). Needless to say, if it falls below freezing I will be going in late tomorrow because that will mean a lot of ice out there in the morning.

I had a rough day food wise. For the first time since Oct. 6th I went way over my calorie limit. With the exception of two days (where I overshot the 1500 limit by 20-50 calories) I have kept my calorie count below 1500 per day - and for the most part I average 1200- 1250 calories a day. Since we all made it in to work today the owner of the company I work for treated us to lunch at Applebee's. I should have gone with one of the items from the Weight Watchers menu, but I really wanted wings. So I ordered an appetizer order of the BBQ Boneless Wings. It was a huge serving, but I only ate 4 wings and the celery (not the ranch dressing) so it could have been worse. The rest I gave away to the skinny people that work in my office. (Everyone at my office is skinny - except you know who.) I plugged everything into my FitDay. (I had to try to recreate it since Applebee's doesn't offer nutritional information on any items except their WW items). Chicken wing, honey BBQ sauce, flour & egg to cover the "breaded" part of the wings, oil - lots of oil and it was a lot more than I had mentally figured! So today I've had my apple, celery, an instant oatmeal, carrots, 4 wings, a cup of milk and a WW Turkey frozen dinner (210 calories). And I've ended up around 1800 calories by my guesstimate (I did figure the wings on the high end so it may be a little less, but not much). There was a light at the end of the tunnel though - the wings had an effect on my digestive system so at least I'm not constipated any longer! LOL

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Have you ever felt like this too?

For years my doctors blamed every illness, pain or symptom on my weight. And I don't know when it happened, but some where along the way I started agreeing. The attached is an article taken from a Salt Lake Tribune.



Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Weigh In

I'm down another 1.8 this week. Unfortunately, it wasn't quite enough to keep me on track for my goal of 10 lbs per month. February is a short month, but I'm going to have to try hard as heck to make up the difference because I really want to be in Onederland by October!!

Work wise, I'm exhausted! I keep running into road blocks and other obstacles along the way that completely wreck havoc with the progress I'd made with my project. But I am ultimately getting some where! And it's a challenge so I'm happy!

Monday, January 29, 2007

Diet and Exercise Myths

Woo Hoo! I was reading an article on Science Daily called Experts "Weigh In" on Popular Diet and Exercise Myths tonight and I was so happy to see #10...

You have to sweat to have a good workout.

False. Tyne says "Sweating is not necessarily an indicator of exertion--sweating is your body's way of cooling itself." It is possible to burn a significant number of calories without breaking a sweat: try taking a walk, or doing some light weight training or working out in a swimming
pool.

For some reason I've always followed the guidelines of "It's a great workout if..."

  1. You have trouble talking while doing the exercise
  2. You sweat
Now I can stop beating myself up when I don't break into a sweat while exercising!!


Thursday, January 25, 2007

Fugees

Sometimes all it takes is reading about a part of someone else's life to make me realize how silly I'm being for getting upset about losing only .2 - that there are some people that face bigger obstacles every day than I could ever imagine!!

Taken from the New York Times (it caught my eye because my first apartment was in Clarkston - ahhh, so many, many years ago.)


CLARKSTON, Ga., Jan. 20 — Early last summer the mayor of this small town east of Atlanta issued a decree: no more soccer in the town park.

“There will be nothing but baseball and football down there as long as I am mayor,” Lee Swaney, a retired owner of a heating and air-conditioning business, told the local paper. “Those fields weren’t made for soccer.”

In Clarkston, soccer means something different than in most places. As many as half the residents are refugees from war-torn countries around the world. Placed by resettlement agencies in a once mostly white town, they receive 90 days of assistance from the government and then are left to fend for themselves. Soccer is their game.

But to many longtime residents, soccer is a sign of unwanted change, as unfamiliar and threatening as the hijabs worn by the Muslim women in town. It’s not football. It’s not baseball. The fields weren’t made for it. Mayor Swaney even has a name for the sort of folks who play the game: the soccer people.

Caught in the middle is a boys soccer program called the Fugees — short for refugees, though most opponents guess the name refers to the hip-hop band.


Fungees Family soccer team website



Sunday, January 21, 2007

The Daffodil Principle

Received via email...

Several times my daughter had telephoned to say, "Mother, you must come to see the daffodils before they are over." I wanted to go, but it was a two-hour drive from Laguna to Lake Arrowhead "I will come next Tuesday", I promised a little reluctantly on her third call.

Next Tuesday dawned cold and rainy. Still, I had promised, and reluctantly I drove there. When I finally walked into Carolyn's house I was welcomed by the joyful sounds of happy children. I delightedly hugged and greeted my grandchildren.

"Forget the daffodils, Carolyn! The road is invisible in these clouds and fog, and there is nothing in the world except you and these children that I want to see badly enough to drive another inch!"

My daughter smiled calmly and said, "We drive in this all the time, Mother." "Well, you won't get me back on the road until it clears, and then I'm heading for home!" I assured her. "But first we're going to see the daffodils. It's just a few blocks," Carolyn said. "I'll drive. I'm used to this."

"Carolyn," I said sternly, "Please turn around." "It's all right, Mother, I promise. You will never forgive yourself if you miss this experience."

After about twenty minutes, we turned onto a small gravel road and I saw a small church. On the far side of the church, I saw a hand lettered sign with an arrow that read, " Daffodil Garden " We got out of the car, each took a child's hand, and I followed Carolyn down the path. Then, as we turned a corner, I looked up and gasped. Before me lay the most glorious sight.











It looked as though someone had taken a great vat of gold and poured it over the mountain peak and its surrounding slopes. The flowers were planted in majestic, swirling patterns, great ribbons and swaths of deep orange, creamy white, lemon yellow, salmon pink, and saffron and butter yellow. Each different-colored variety was planted in large groups so that it swirled and flowed like its own river with its own unique hue. There were five acres of flowers.

"Who did this?" I asked Carolyn. "Just one woman," Carolyn answered. "She lives on the property. That's her home." Carolyn pointed to a well-kept A-frame house, small and modestly sitting in the midst of all that glory. We walked up to the house.

On the patio, we saw a poster. "Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking", was the headline. The first answer was a simple one. "50,000 bulbs," it read. The second answer was, "One at a time, by one woman. Two hands, two feet, and one brain." The third answer was, "Began in 1958."

For me, that moment was a life-changing experience. I thought of this woman whom I had never met, who, more than forty years before, had begun, one bulb at a time, to bring her vision of beauty and joy to an obscure mountaintop. Planting one bulb at a time, year after year, this unknown woman had forever changed the world in which she lived. One day at a time, she had created something of extraordinary magnificence, beauty, and inspiration. The principle her daffodil garden taught is one of the greatest principles of celebration.

That is, learning to move toward our goals and desires one step at a time--often just one baby-step at time--and learning to love the doing, learning to use the accumulation of time. When we multiply tiny pieces of time with small increments of daily effort, we too will find we can accomplish magnificent things. We can change the world ...

"It makes me sad in a way," I admitted to Carolyn. "What might I have accomplished if I had thought of a wonderful goal thirty-five or forty years ago and had worked away at it 'one bulb at a time' through all those years? Just think what I might have been able to achieve!"

My daughter summed up the message of the day in her usual direct way. "Start tomorrow," she said.

She was right. It's so pointless to think of the lost hours of yesterdays. The way to make learning a lesson of celebration instead of a cause for regret is to only ask, "How can I put this to use today?"

Use the Daffodil Principle. Stop waiting.....
  • Until your car or home is paid off
  • Until you get a new car or home
  • Until your kids leave the house
  • Until you go back to school
  • Until you finish school
  • Until you clean the house
  • Until you organize the garage
  • Until you clean off your desk
  • Until you lose 10 lbs.
  • Until you gain 10 lbs.
  • Until you get married
  • Until you get a divorce
  • Until you have kids
  • Until the kids go to school
  • Until you retire
  • Until summer
  • Until spring
  • Until winter
  • Until fall
  • Until you die...
There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money.
Love like you've never been hurt, and, Dance like no one's watching.


Saturday, January 20, 2007

Happy it's the weekend

My week ended with the disturbing realization that I had made my payment for my home mortgage to Citibank Financial by mistake! I had to scramble around last night to adjust my budget (I have funds in savings - but I don't want to touch that account unless I absolutely have to) so that I could pay the mortgage company. Since my balance at Citibank was only $120, I had to call to request a refund of the remaining credit showing on the account - so I should get that back in about 2 weeks (funny how it only took 24 hours for them to get my online "mis" payment and cash it out, but it takes 2 weeks for them to give it back to me!).

Diet wise, I hanging in there! For some reason the last two days have been hard - but hard in an unusual way. Even though I'm eating and I'm not hungry, I have been having trouble getting in enough calories to stay in a "healthy" range. Thursday I think I finished up with 890 calories and yesterday I got stuck at 970 (Both days I had to drink an extra glass of milk to get it up as high as I did). Today I did much better with total calorie intake of 1204. But I can tell that I'm not getting in enough because I'm exhausted. (I got up at 6 this morning - which isn't that bad for a weekend. But then I went back to bed around 10 this morning for a short nap (I thought it was because I was cold and thought I would warm up if I crawled back into bed). My short nap lasted until 3 this afternoon. A part of me is thinking that the Graves could be getting ready to strike again at full force so I'll have to keep my eye on it.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Someone Lied!

I recently read a thread on skin tags on one of the sites that I visit. Cut them off yourself, it doesn't hurt. Yeah right! I went out this weekend and bought me a new pair of small scissors so that I could try to remove some skin tags. Last night I started my self-operation. After sterilizing the scissors I proceeded to snip at the first one. Pulling and laying it flat so that I could get it as close to the base as possible as the forum thread instructed. Snip. Hmmm - the scissors didn't cut through completely. Snip, Snip. Ouch, Ouch - it is pinching. Snip, snip, snip. Ouch, Ouch, Ouch!! It really pinched, but after six snips I had cut the little monster off. And then came the blood!!! I must have bled for 12 hours straight because I know I went through a box of small round bandaids - on the ONE skin tag I managed to take off!! It burned last night and then today every time I moved in certain ways I could feel a small pull where it used to be. A few minutes ago I decided to check out my recently amputated skin tag (for all I knew it could still be bleeding!). I carefully peeled back the bandaid...only to find that either the skin tag has already grown back or I didn't cut it down as far as I thought I did because there it was waving at me!!

I am officially waiting until I win the lottery so that I can afford go to a dermatologist who can put me under while removing every skin tag on my body!! Anyone need a pair of scissors or a bottle of rubbing alcohol??

Monday, January 15, 2007

Feeling very sorry for myself :'(

My pudgy little fingers are just going to type the ramblings of my mind. I'm not PMS'ing but there seems to be something going on in my little pea brain because I'm feeling terribly sorry for myself.

I've joined several online support groups in the last two years - 4 of which I visit daily. I post, I try to encourage, I try to offer advise, I try to express sympathy when needed. Bottom line - I try to respond to all posts that I read and show that I care. So why do I feel that people don't really care one way or the other if I post? I can post a reply to a message and not receive any acknowledgements that anyone has even read my post - yet the person that posts right behind me gets acknowledged. EVEN IF THEY'VE POSTED THE SAME THING I JUST SAID!!! It's bad enough when you reply to a message and the originator only acknowledges the people in their little click, but when it looks like I am being singled out to be disregarded or overlooked I have to start wondering what is wrong with me. And then there are those that only post occassionally, yet everyone crawls out of the woodwork to respond to them when they decide to make an appearance.

I'm just having a little pity party for myself. By tomorrow I'm sure I'll be able to come back here and delete this post.

WOW - this blog thing works! I feel better already and while I still don't know why I'm suddenly so sensititve about this, the party is over! I think I'm just too boring for the average person! :D