Not doing good

That's actually an understatement! I don't know what I need to do to get my focus back but I am going to continue trying. I will make it!!!

Yesterday I went to get my eyes examined. And I spent almost $1000 on new glasses. I was going to get both glasses and contacts as this is an "odd" year and I give contacts a shot every other year. But the vision office personnel had the personality of a cardboard box - from the receptionist to the doctor. They had basically almost pushed me out of the office before I realized that they weren't going to do the contact portion (they said they forgot). The doctor was already with the next patient by that point, but they were kind enough (that's sarcasm!) to offer to put me down for another appointment. Grrr!

Today I went to the car wash to vacuum my car. Apparently I'm still not used to the new vision prescription because I actually turned into a brick wall. I hate getting old!

Oops!

Inquiring minds want to know how I can do so much cardio without dropping dead of exhaustion or boredom...

I can't!! LOL Today I could barely crawl out of bed. And as far as the boredom goes, I've just accepted that I hate exercise but that I have do it if I have any hope of getting this weight off. Going to the gym helps - I'm so busy watching the TV, watching other people to see how they use different machines (some...actually most of them, still scare me!) and my new favorite thing is the rowing machine - I set it on Fishing mode and try to beat my previous scores (the better/faster you row the more fish bite the dust!). But it gets harder all the time because once I get used to something I lose interest (i.e. the pool - talk about boring! It's fine for 30 minutes, but I'm having trouble maintaining my hour goals).

Food wise - I sucked today! Actually if I were following my normal 1200-1500 goal I would be fine, but I'm really wanting to keep it under 1000 this week. That didn't happen today.

Calories: 1221
Exercise: 1 hour bike, 30 minutes treadmill. That's it...
Weight: Down 7.4 lbs (4.6 lbs to go!)

That's better

Calories: 793
Exercise: 1 hour treadmill, 30 minutes bike, 30 minutes rowing machine, 30 minutes weights.
Weight: down 5.6 lbs (6.4 lbs to go)

It could have been better

Calories: 1177
Exercise: 30 minutes bike, 30 minutes treadmill
Down 1 lb...11 to go.

Pick An Adjective

a) angry?
b) disgusted?
c) frustrated?
d) all of the above and then some....ding, ding, ding, ding!!!

When I lose control, I really lose control. So, last week I said that I wasn't going to weigh myself because I just knew that I was going to gain. Of course, I had to weigh myself - I just couldn't stop myself! I was up 2 lbs. But everything was ok because I got back on program on Monday and by Thursday I was back down into the 20's (just barely). But then I totally lost it again. Between Thursday night and this morning (count it, that 3-1/2 days!) I have managed to gain back those 2 lbs, PLUS an additional 10 lbs!!! Yes, that is correct - not only have I knocked myself back out of the 20's but I've also knocked myself back out of the 30's!! I checked my weight log - it took me 9 weeks to lose those 12 lbs!

That's it - no more excuses!!! I'm back OP and until I lose those 12 lbs I can't have anything but lean meat, fruits and veggies...no Laughing Cow cheese, no 1/2 cup of vanilla ice cream, no fat free salad dressing, no pickles, no starchy veggies, no popcorn, NO, NO, NO!!!


Awww, crap! I just remembered that my mother is coming back through town tomorrow and I promised to take her out for her birthday. OK, change of plan. NO MORE EXCUSES except for the birthday dinner.


Pick An Adjective: Ticked - I have never been as ticked off at myself as I am right now!!!

Calories for the day - 860
Exercise - 50 minutes bike, 30 minutes treadmill, 15 minutes rowing machine and 20 minutes weights.

Hate - It's a strong word

I hate my job.

Nuff said.

Danger Will Robinson!!!

OK, I have no idea what brought it on, but it came with force!!!

A Binge!!!!

It was horrible - and I mean it was horrible!! And yes, I thought that a couple of months ago when I had the bad day. But this weekend was horrible!!!!



Are you beginning to get the idea that I had a horrible weekend food-wise?? LOL Oh, well - it's over with. I've done good today. And I am not stepping on the scale for at least 3 days - I know there is absolutely no way I haven't gained and I'm not going to let a bad weigh-in mentally bring me down.

*shudder*

Biggest Loser

I thought this was interesting...

Fat Chance

What? Another Entry So Soon???

This one will be quick(er). I have an announcement, an event and a recipe.

Announcement:
Today is my official weigh-in day and I actually gained a little....from yesterday. BUT I still get to ring in a 4.2 lb loss for the week which gently throws me into a new decade!!! I wasn't going to make a big deal of it because there's a good chance that tomorrow I'll be back up a few ounces (that seems to be how my body works!). But on the drive home I figured out a way to avoid slipping back into the 30's...I'm just not going to weigh tomorrow!!!


Event:
This is my basic exercise plan.

• Monday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio (machines, walking, DVD's whatever) and 30 minutes on the weight machines for abs, back and butt.
• Tuesday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio. 30 minutes -1 hour in the pool.
• Wednesday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio (machines, walking, DVD's whatever) and 30 minutes on the weight machines for arms & chest.
• Thursday - Tuesday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio. 30 minutes -1 hour in the pool.
• Friday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio (machines, walking, DVD's whatever) and 30 minutes on the weight machines for legs.
• Saturday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio. 30 minutes -1 hour in the pool.
• Sunday - 30 minutes - 1 hour cardio.

Since today is Tuesday, I got to enjoy the pool! In my laps I noticed this guy in the lane next to me. When he swam to the end of the pool, he put his feet and calves over the edge of the pool (I actually started to suggest that he use the ladder, because I thought he was trying to get out of the pool in a slow motion, reverse sort of the way!). But what he was doing was sit-ups! He would sit up and touch his knees (which were right at the edge of the pool) then lay back so that his upper chest and head went under the water. Of course, he made it look so easy that I just had to try it myself (after everyone else had exited the pool of course). Do you know how hard it is to throw your legs up over the edge of the pool???? It was almost impossible!!! But that seemed like child's play compared to the next step. I laid back into the pool (picture: HEAD UNDER THE WATER!) and found that I didn't have enough strength to do the sit up!!! That wouldn't have been so bad, but it's almost like with my head under water, my brain wasn't able to communicate with my legs so I couldn't get my legs down off the pool edge. There I was on the verge of drowning and all I could think was "Please God. Don't let anyone walk in and see me this way!". Luckily I must have splashed enough water to make the pool edge slippery because I finally made like a seal and slid right back into the water. The good news is that the concrete at the edge of the pool seem to have acted like a depilatory....I bet I won't have to shave my legs below my knee for at least 2 weeks!

Recipe:

Meatloaf Muffins

1 lb. ground turkey (ground beef can be used, but turkey has less fat)
1 box Stovetop Stuffing Mix
1 medium onion
1/2 cup green bell pepper, chopped
1 teaspoon garlic salt
2 egg whites
1 cup hot water
1 package Lipton Onion Soup Mix
1/4 cup ketchup

Mix Stovetop Stuffing & water in a large bow. Stir with a fork until moistened.
In another bowl mix the other ingredients together.
Add the stuffing to the other ingredients

Spray muffin tin with Pam.

Fill muffin tins almost to the top with the meatloaf mixture.

Bake at 350 for 30-35 minutes.

12 servings - 110 calories (+/- a few calories depending on which stuffing mix and which ketchup you use)

The Much Anticipated Update

My one person audience requested an update so here it is...

After my slightly disappointing weigh-in two weeks ago, I was really anticipating a great WI last Tuesday - or if it wasn't a great WI I was looking forward to at least seeing the same loss two weeks in a row (which is rare for me!). And guess what!!! I saw the same 2 this week!!!! The only problem was that my 2 was proceeded with a "."! So even though I've bumped up my exercise my old nemesis .2 is still following me around. But that's ok - I'm seeing some good numbers so far this week and I'm not planning on letting anything throw me off program so I'm pretty sure I'll be seeing at least a 2 lb loss next Tuesday.

Exercise - I've managed to get to the gym every day except Sundays and one Monday (I was experiencing some digestive problems and just couldn't see myself running downstairs fast enough to reach the restrooms if the need suddenly arose!). I was going gung-ho there for a while, but I've pretty much brought it back down to 1 hour. I do 30-60 minutes on the bike at home every morning before I go to work so I'm still working out at least 1-1/2 hours per day which is good.

But the big news is...I finally got in the pool!!! I would drag in my bag every day, and day after day that bag would go back home with me unopened. Finally on Wednesday I said "No Excuses" and took the plunge. I checked the pool area before going upstairs to do some cardio exercises and there were 3 women in there...all of them were skinny but at least they were women and they were few. I worked out upstairs for 45 minutes then came back downstairs. Checked out the pool area again and there was only 1 woman in the pool (I don't know how many people were in the hot tub since it sits off to the side). So...NO EXCUSES! Unlike others there, I need my privacy so I ended up changing into my suit in one of the tiny little bathroom stalls. I waiting until I could hear no little footsteps and came out of the stall in my suit...with my beach towel sized bath towel wrapped around me! I crept into the locker room (ready to scamper back quickly into a stall should I hear anyone coming) to lock up my stuff. Then...NO EXCUSES! I walked on out to the pool area. The 1 woman had left the pool so I had the area all to myself...EXCEPT for 3 men who had appeared since I last checked it!!! Thinking back there was probably nothing that could have gotten me into that pool faster than the thought of all 3 of those men waiting in anticipation for a glimpse of my spectacular body slowly being unwrapped from the bulky old towel! I did the towel drop and the 10 foot walk to the pool in 2 seconds flat!! Safely under the water (I actually had to scrunch way down because the first part of the pool is only 3-1/2 feet) I was in heaven! I walked the pool, did kicks and even swam for almost 2 hours!! I was feeling so good that I wasn't even fazed when I finally got out and caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror only to see that my eye makeup had run all under my eyes and they were very red so that I looked like a rabid rotund raccoon! Bottom line is that I've been back in the pool two more times since Wednesday and I've reached the point where I'm not even checking the area first...I LOVE THE WATER!!