WI Eve

I'm dreading tomorrow. I've been OP all week, but as of this morning I am back to where I ended last week. AND ever since my last WI I have been losing and gaining the same .2 lbs. Needless to say I'm finding it hard to stay motivated. Note....I'm finding it hard to stay motivated does not mean I'm not still motivated!!!! I'm going to keep my fingers crossed but I'm not expecting anything as today was super hectic at work and that means that my calorie intake was very low which usually throws my metabolism into a tail spin.

On the non-diet front...

• The pollen count today was 5,499. Yes, that's correct - 5,499! My dark green car is yellow, my eyes are red and my runny nose is producing green snot. Did I mention that my sinus are backed up below my knees! Even my toes are hurting from the sinus pressure!!
  
• I have finished my bunny bags with the exception of threading the ribbon through the bag openings. One of them has it's little face on backwards (the ribbon for the bag should tie at the back of the bag - this one will tie in the front of the bag - think "bunny with hair ribbon!"). I'll give that one to J because she doesn't know if she's coming or going half the time so I'm sure she will develop a kinship with the backwards bunny!
  
• Tigerlilly Furbella suffered a Myocardial Infraction when her "starter" battery gave out, but she is much better now thanks to 2 new D batteries. So much for them telling me the batteries lasted for months and months!
  
• The ants on are the move. Yes, the weather is getting hot (I can't believe how hot it is getting already!!!). And when the weather gets hot (and dry) the ants make their way indoors. I came home from a long day at work to find the ants marching from the french doors in the dining room all the way into the kitchen. Of course that ticked me off because I was really looking forward to actually getting a chance to eat today and because of them I couldn't fix dinner!!! Or maybe I should say because of the ant spray I sprayed all over the floor I couldn't fix dinner. I sprayed so much that I'll be lucky if it's dry in the morning! As it is, my already runny eyes because of the pollen are now swollen shut because of the spray!!!

I'm hungry and I'm tired. I think I'll go to bed. :)

The "F" Word

That's right, it's time to talk about Farts! And don't even pretend that you don't fart. You may be good at holding in farts - more power to you! But the little gassy inmates sentenced for a stay in your intestines will make a prison break as soon as you relax so don't even think about going to sleep!!!

Why am I on the subject of farts? Because I was in great pain for two days this week with what I call "stomach farts". Stomach farts start in your stomach (duh) and set up camp because the gas takes the wrong fork in the road on its journey to the butt. It reached unbelievable proportions. The noise that my stomach made caused my co-workers to look up and ask "is that thunder?". Bending over was a risky situation because I never could tell when the movement would cause my roll of belly fat to push the gassy substance down for an ill-timed release (needless to say - there was a trail following me around as I wasn't all that eager to bend over to pick up anything I may have dropped if there was anyone around). When I had to pee I had to fight the urge to stand up and pee – because I knew as soon as I sat down on the toilet air would rush out of my anal opening (and there was no controlling the “noise level” that might ensue). I was coughing, opening and closing my desk drawers unnecessarily and generally talking much louder than normal with the sole purpose of covering up any noise that may be coming from my body.

Happily, I'm now all better. And I learned a lesson.... even if you're already getting in a good dose of fiber a day, don't decide to suddenly start eating multiple servings of Fiber One cereal in one fell swoop! You've got to build up to it!!!

It's Official

.2

This sucks!

To get dressed or to not get dressed...

It is now 3:05 and I'm still running around the house in my gown and robe! I did brush my teeth, but I haven't taken a shower, brushed my hair or put on makeup (what a pretty picture!). I had planned on going out an running errands but then I started working on cutting out the feet, hands, ears and all the circles for "paws" for my bunny bags. That lead me to testing out one to see what it was going to look like if I sew them all by hand. It took me 30 minutes alone just to sew up one bunny (this doesn't include the time it takes to cut the fabric or to make all the arms, feet and ears). (And I'll mention at this point - the bag I cut out was too small - or else everything else I'd cut out was too big so I'm going to have to re-cut a larger bag pattern.) So that lead me downstairs to where I thought my sewing machine was stored. It was down in the hall closet - the machine was on the floor, the peddle was up on the top shelf (why? I have no idea). Finding the sewing machine lead me to setting it up. Setting it up lead me to trying to figure out how to load the bobbin. Trying to figure out how to load the bobbin lead me to open up the cover only to have everything in there fall out - BEFORE I EVEN HAD A CHANCE TO SEE WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE BEFORE THE CONTRAPTION DECIDED TO MAKE LIKE DOMINO'S! That lead me to 30 minutes of frantically looking for the operational booklet (I never found it). So after another 30 minutes I finally got the bobbin back in where it belonged (with the thread on it that was on it in the first place - since I had that much trouble just trying to get the bobbin in place and since it actually matched the fabric that I was using I decided to stick with it). Then I needed to thread the machine. I threaded this way, then that way but no matter what I did I couldn't get the needle to move up and down when I pressed the peddle. I was able to get it to go up and down by manually turning the wheel. I've left everything set up downstairs - maybe tomorrow I'll feel like tackling it again but for now I'm totally fed up. At this point I'm just going to stick to my original plan of sewing the bags by hand. If I were only 20 years younger I bet I could remember what I'd learned in the two years of sewing lessons my mother made me take!

Diet wise I'm hanging in there. I was up a couple of ounces this morning, but nothing like what I went through the week before last. I'm probably not going to have a huge loss this week but I'm pretty comfortable that I will lose at least a pound. (Which will officially put me at losing that elephant's penis that I've been aiming for as a short term goal!).

Now I'm off for that shower so that I can at least do something productive today. :)

By the way - my kitty is officially named......

Tigerlily Furbella

It's time for me to see a shrink!

Good news. :( I lost 3.6 this past week. That is in fact good news, yet I'm not excited about it. I really was hoping to make up for the gain last week - in other words I really wanted to lose at least 5 lbs this past week. It was not to be and I should be grateful for the loss. I'm not grateful yet, but I'm sure the next time I have a small gain or an even smaller loss I will remember what an ungrateful bitch I was today and I will say thank goodness for that 3.6 lb loss! I think I need a shrink because I can't help comparing my loses with everyone else! I know that everyone loses at different rates. I know that my medication for the Graves Disease has slowed down my thyroid to an all time low so it's going to be harder for me to lose. And I know that it's not good to lose weight too fast anyway. But bottom line - I want the numbers to go down, and down fast!!!!

Food wise - I met a friend for dinner tonight. It was planned. And in my planning I knew that I would go over my maximum calorie limit today. I rode the bike for a full hour this morning to help offset some of the extra calories. I did 30 minutes of Kick Boxing when I got home to help burn even more of the extra calories. And (this is a biggie) I got in my 10,000 steps today!! And I just plugged in everything I ate today in my FitDay journal...

I only consumed 1340 calories!!!

So I didn't go over my 1500 max limit!!! Yeah me!!!!

Now I have to go name my cat. I never got around to spending my $100 from my last pity party (gosh, I'm getting good about pity parties) so tonight I bought myself a silly, tacky, stupid _______ (fill in your own adjective) gift. I love animals, but it wouldn't be fair to have a pet since I work so much and I live in a townhouse so I don't have a proper yard. Tonight I found one of those stuffed cats - you know the ones that from a distance actually looks like a cat but once you get close to it...well it looks like a stuffed animal. But this one had a twist (at least I had never seen it before) - it's little side goes up and down like she's breathing! I got the little orange Tabby and when she breaths it makes her stripes move - and you can see it even from across the room!!! I actually wanted the Golden Retriever puppy but they didn't have one in a box and I wanted the whole shebang! And now that I've seen the website I think I want one of the little Pugs or the Chihuahua's so I may end up spending my whole $100 on perfectpetzzzz's.

If you wanna see my little kitty go to Perfect Petzzz!

Hmmmm - I won't be buying another little tyke on-line. I only paid $28 for my little tabby. She must have been the runt of the litter. LOL

Get over it!

I'm done sulking (this time anyway). I ended last week with a gain. It was a small gain (.2) but I resented the crap out of it since I'd worked so hard. But it could have been worse because the day before WI, I was actually up 2.4 lbs! This week has been pretty much more of the same. I did finally lose 2 whole lbs. But then yesterday I had gained all of it back except .2 - what is it with the .2???

Total lost in February was a measly old 6.2 lbs. The good news - even with the gain and with the overall (in my opinion) small February loss I stuck with my program!

Now this is pathetic...There is a girl at work. 5'9" tall. She weighs maybe 125 lbs but that would be stretching it to the max! She thinks she is overweight and she wants to lose 10 lbs. I don't have a problem with that. I may not agree but if she would be happier with herself losing 10 lbs so be it. So on Tuesday she came in with her SlimFast for breakfast & lunch and her carrots for a snack. For dinner she is still eating as she had in the past and she is still drinking her beer(s) nightly. Here comes the pathetic part.... Yesterday (Friday - 3 full days into her new diet plan!!) one of the other girls in the office said "WOW! I can tell you've already lost weight!!!" WTF???!!! I've lost 55 lbs and no one has noticed a thing, yet this skinny little twit can be on what amounts to probably a 1800-2000 calorie diet with no exercise and in 3 days people can tell a difference??? Oh how unfair can life be! :P

The good news is that it got me out of my funk and I'm mentally back into the battle!