Soooo bad!
I knew it would happen, I just didn't realize that when it happened it would be this bad! Seven months and one week...that's how long I've been on program. During that time I've had 3 "bad" days which consisted of going over my calorie limit by up to 100 calories (actually I think one of them was 200 calories - but still all in all not too bad!) This morning I left early because it was one of my co-workers birthday and I was going to stop and get her a doughnut. I even remembered to bring the candle, the treat bag to put it in and the ribbon to tie the bag with. One frigging doughnut, that's all I was going for.
The next thing I knew I was eating the doughnut!!!! And I don't even like doughnuts that much!!! And then the day really went downhill. I don't know if I'm even going to log it all in, but guessing I would say that I've consumed close to 3000 calories today. I'm physically sick. For the first time in months I've had to take Tums. I eaten more today than I would have in 2+ days!
I'm not mad at myself. I am however a little disappointed in myself. I've locked myself upstairs in my bedroom with no food to tempt me. But the overwhelming emotion I'm feeling right now is fear. It snowballed so fast today. I have confidence that I'll get back on track tomorrow but I can't help worrying about the next time.
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Aw, Mel. You're likely to "pish posh" what I'm about to say, but I'll say it anyway. :)
I know how frustrated you are with this whole thing, and I know the feeling of eating things you don't even really like that much. Ohhh yes I do.
You slipped up... big deal! I know you're just dying to kick yourself for quite awhile, but you're too good for that, and you've come waaaay waaaay too far.. AND you are my personal weight loss hero! So there!! You kick butt, you know that? No more fear. I know you're doing this for real (even if you feel like you might be slipping... I have a lot more faith in you than that!) nothing can stop you!!
Have a great and healthy weekend Melissa!
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